Thursday, March 01, 2007
Your such a coward, can't even do your job. Why do you even try, you know your going to fail. Look in the mirror do you think this is a posture of a strong, amazing, intelligent man, you know the answer is NO.
You better start thinking of taking that gun off the shelve and finishing your sorry excuse of a brain. You see the tears streaming down your face, you can not go on, we all know this.
He walks out the door with a sad look in his eyes, there is no one worse than him, and the man must always listen to him. He cannot get away.
You will never make your deadline, look at the piles of paperwork, you know you are stupid, why do you even try. Stupid man, stop trying to fool yourself, your report is a disgusting lack of intelligence. You wasted your fathers money by studying economics you haven't sold any good stock in months.
Cry again, that's all you always do is cry. If it is not tears streaming in the mirror, it is blood from your heart.
He stands up and walks to the coffee machine, he feels tired and used up. Why does it always have to be so negative, and hurtful. He has never done anything to upset him.
Yes, go home alone to your lonely apartment with your perfect furniture. Then maybe you can waist your brain on the leather couch, you adore so much. Walk faster you won't shake me off. Show your face are you crying again, you pathetic man.
You will never have a family, you will die alone and bitter. Just end it tonight!
He bumps into a woman by accident, she falls to the floor.
"I am so sorry, I did not see you."
He reach for her, she takes his hand and her hand disappears in his.
"It is ok."
Their eyes meet. She has the soft shade of grey in her eyes and the light that shimmers in them are fascinating. Her hair is over her left eye and she brushes it away.
"Did I hurt you?": he says with a painful concern.
"No, but you can buy me coffee to help me forgive you."
Her smile is so playful, so sweet and perfect.
"I need to, hmmm"...
"Take a chance" she says.
"Tonight may be your last night".
It sometimes only takes a small event to help someone that is fighting an internal struggle. a Smile really takes no effort.